Bedspacers: An Erotic Romance Series: Si Niko 5

Salamat po sa mga readers. I decided to put some story between Dom and Niko para hindi lang puro sex ang kwento. Hope ma-appreciate ninyo. -Uno Maricon

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NANATILI LANG  sa loob ng cabinet ko ang condom at lube na nabili ko for the next several days. After that night na nabosohan ko sina Niko at Cherryl with Niko’s knowledge and then nothing changes on how he treats me the following afternoon, I finally decided to let it go.

Inaamin ko I was affected very much. During the next few nights I was thinking much about it. Gusto ko pa ngang pagsisihan ang nangyari sa amin ni Niko nang umagang iyon. Gusto ko ang nangyari in a sex-motivated way but not in a strange way like this. Not in a way that I found out I have these feelings for him and then let it happen and then now sa kaniya it was a one-time thing dahil available siya habang ako bigla lang umasa that what happened could be a start of something else, more than a blowjob and jerking.

Kaya hindi ko na rin inulit ang pamboboso. Not now that I can’t stand seeing Niko with Cherryl especially in sexual way anymore. Balik na lang ulit sa dati, linis ng bahay, eskwela at balik ulit sa bahay, gawa ng assigments at tulog.

Sa umaga I see to it na puro paglilinis lang ang gagawin ko especially sa room nina Niko. Kahit gusto kong hawakan at idikit sa ilong ang kaniyang mga pinagbihisang damit just to have a scent of him pero hindi ko ginawa. Hey, hindi naman ako masokista to hurt myself from doing such things.

Sa hapon, simpleng tango lang at wave lang ng kamay sa tuwing makikita ko sina Cherryl at Niko. But I don’t know if I’m just imagining things as most of the time whenever my eyes met with Niko I felt sadness creeping his face, parang may gusto siyang sabihin sa akin pero hindi naman niya masabi.

Sa gabi, naisip kong kausapin siya pagkaalis ni Cherryl pero paano kung imahinasyon ko lang pala na me gusto siyang sabihin? Kung meron man, paano kung ang sasabihin pala niya is to ask me to shut my mouth about what happened to us that morning and keep it our own little secret? Paano kung sabihin niya na ang nangyari ay gawa lang ng libog at it should have never happened?

So to shield myself, I just stayed the inside our room every night. Dahil alam kong once I get near him and he ignites within me this passionate feeling, I doubt if I could ever say no anoman ang hingin niya. Na ayaw kong mangyari because I don’t want him to cheat with his girlfriend. Maybe the first time I let it happened because I assumed wala na sila, but not now. Kahit init lang ng katawan para sa kaniya iyong nangyari, kahit wala lang because he is totally straight.

Pero kahit siguro anong iwas ko to face my fear, which now is facing Niko, mangyayari at mangyayari din. Nasa akin na lang siguro how I will I react if ever. Will I run away or will I gain enough strength to face it?

A dreary morning exactly eight days later, habang nagwawalis ako sa loob ng room nila Niko when I found something underneath his bed. İpinasok ko ang walis sa ilalim ng parteng uluhan ng kama at paghila ko sumunod ang isang magazine.

I suspect it to be a straight porn magazine kaya napa-‘O’ ang aking mga labi nang pagbuklat ko ay hindi pala. Holy fuck! It was a gay porn magazine!

But wait! Double deck ito, si Niko sa ibaba at si Jim na classmate niya ang nasa taas. Pwedeng isa sa kanila ang may-ari ng porn magazine. Pero kung kay Jim ito at pagkatapos magparaos ay mabitawan, hindi ba dapat mahulog ito sa deck ni Niko? O dapat mapansin ni Niko?

Bubuksan ko pa sana ang magazine nang marinig kong bumukas ang pinto ng main door. Out of panic, isinilid ko sa ilalim ng mattress ni Niko ang magazine and continue sweeping the floor when İ heard the room’s door opened.

“Hey!” bati ni Niko.

I turn around and get up on my feet. Tumingin ako sa mukha niyang nakangiti. Unlike last week, well kept ang uniform niya with the same shiny shoes but now without the bag. Mas humaba na ngayon an inch ang semi kalbong buhok. Fuck! He is sexually handsome.

”Hey yourself.” At naramdaman kong nabuhay ang mga maliliit na paru-paro sa loob ng aking sikmura at kaniya-kaniyang lipad in all directions.

Humakbang siya palapit and when I smelled that cheap perfume and fresh soap na nagpalundag sa aking tarugo, nabitawan ko ang walis and managed to step backward.

Napakunot-noo siya and stay still. “Just came for a few minutes...”

Hindi ko mahanap sa isip ko ang sasabihin. I felt my heart skipped a beat waiting for him to speak again.

Ngumiti siya ulit na parang gusto niya akong hawaan. “Wala kasi akong cellphone number mo Dom at hindi kita matiyempuhan sa labas ng room ninyo ni Jeff pag-alis ni Cherryl these past several nights so...”

Nahawa na nga yata ako as I found myself smiling. “So...?”

“So I took this chance.”

Lumakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko. “Chance?”

Tumango siya and again smiled revealing those TV-commercial-type pearly white teeth. Hell! I was fucking mesmerized feeling blood rising on my veins and making its way towards my cock. Kung hawak ko pa sana ang walis pwede kong ipantakip sa harapan ng aking shorts para hindi mapansin ni Niko that he has this fucking effect on me.

Kinuha niya ang cellphone sa bulsa at lumapit sa akin, only this time hindi na ako humakbang palayo. “Key in your number Dom,” sabi niya sabay abot sa akin.

I found myself staring on that muscled arm of his. Sa mga pinong balahibo pababa sa taas ng kaniyang mga daliri. I felt the urge to run my fingers and feel the muscles. I felt the need to smell those hairs and white skin. I felt the longing to lo lick and taste...Shit! It was never like this with Cedric. Not even close!

At nang abutin ko ang cellphone and our fingers touched, nakaramdam ako ng kuryenteng dumaloy mula sa kaniyang daliri jumping into mine crossing our heated skin.

Parang gusto na ayaw kong ibigay ang number ko sa kaniya. Ayaw dahil naiisip ko si Cherryl and I don’t want us to be unfair. Gusto dahil iyon ang alam kong makakapagpasaya sa akin. But it’s just a fucking number right?. There is no harm giving it. isn’t it?

Yeah. Right.

Pagkatapos kong nai-type ibinalik ko na sa kaniya ang cellphone. He smiled as he saved it in the pnone’s memory then said, “Thanks Dom. I have to go may klase pa ako. Call you tonight.” Kumindat pa siya just like before.

And then he was gone leaving me smiling and at the same time with a swelling and rigid cock.

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Mage-eleven na ng gabi hindi pa rin nagri-ring ang cellphone ko. Nagsawa na yata ako sa kakatingin sa screen at kung ilang beses ng nag-switch off at switch on ay wala pa rin kahit isang text message man lang galing kay Niko. Naisip ko baka nagbago na ang isip niya.

Baka kagaya rin si Niko ni Cedric. Ang straight-looking at straight-acting na Ex-boyfriend ko. Ang unang lalaking minahal ko at ibinigay ang lahat-lahat. I am more than willing to come out for him to the world but he himself not ready for it and would not even think of a chance doing.

Ikumpara na agad sa ex eh gutso lang naman nung tao na magkausap kayo.  Nag-conclude agad na bisexual iyong tao dahil sa nakakita lang ng porno magazine. Hello! He just want to talk.

“Shut up!” mahinang sabi ko sa makulit na tinig sa utak ko.

Magpapalit na sana ako ng pambahay nang mag-ring ang cellphone ko. Afraid that the sound will wake up Jeff, mabilis ko itong sinagot. “Hello...”

“Hi Dom. It’s me...Niko. Nandito ako sa labas ng gate. Meet you here?”

İ felt my pulse rate quicken and hold my breath for a couple of seconds. “O-okay.”

I took a last glance of myself sa salaming nakasabit sa wall malapit sa main door. I usually never care a lot of how I look. Basta nakaligo at nakasuklay ng buhok eh tama na iyon. Ngayon lang ako medyo naging conscious ulit after Cedric. But looking at my reflection, bagay naman ang V-neck white tshirt na suot ko hugging on the muscles on my pecs and biceps na nakuha ko  hindi dahil sa paggi-gym kundi sa pagtulong kay Tatay sa pagbubukid. I’m a bit dark compared sa maputing balat ni Niko pero hindi naman sunog. At dahil kapos sa pera to see the barber at least once a month kaya medyo mahaba na ang itim na buhok ko covering my ears. As I look down I can see the outline of my soft dick sa suot kong black jogging pants.

Habang papalabas ako ng bahay naisip ko na tama si konsensiya. This is just a casual talk between me and Niko. It means nothing more, nothing less.

Karaniwan lang ang temperatura sa labas kaya nagtaka ako ng bahagya nang makita kong nakasuot siya ng long sleeve black shirt na may hood na nakatakip sa kaniyang ulo. Gray cotton pants na nakahulma sa kaniyang muscled thighs. Kung hindi ko pa naamoy ang pamilyar na cheap perfume na moy ng pinaghalong peppermint at orange, baka nakaramdam na ako ng takot sa kung sinong nag-aabang sa labas ng gate namin.

Pagkakita sa akin, hinawakan ang harapan ng hood tsaka itinulak pababa sa likod ng kaniyang ulo revealing short hairs na basa pa sa katatapos na shower. “Lakad-lakad tayo?” tanong niya pagkasara ko ng gate and finally facing him.

Tumango ako. Again he put back the hood. What is this? tanong ko sa isip as we started walking in deafening silence. After a few blocks nagpasya na akong magsalita. “So how is it going Niko?”

Binagalan niya ang lakad at tumingin sa mukha ko. “Hindi masyadong okay...ikaw?”

“Hindi rin,” sabi ko without thinking about it. Maybe my feelings that I kept to myself for the whole week overtook me.

Nang tumapat kami sa isang waiting shade several blocks away from the boarding house, we decided to take our seats. We could see at least each others faces with the faint light coming from a nearby electric post.

And then I felt the same feeling I have this morning. His nearness makes my stomach plummet. His smell makes me even want to sniff more. I kept my distance even if my body wants to be near. Actually not just near but very near! I need to speak before I loose my mind. “Anong gusto mong pag-usapan?”

Niko remained silent. Nakaingin ang mga mata niya sa yuping coca-cola can sa sahig a few inches away from his feet. As if looking for the right words to say. I waited for him until he finally gathered his strength to speak. “Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari sa akin Dom these past several days. It was insanely scary and beating the shit out of me.”

Ako naman ngayon ang biglang nawalan ng sasabihin. Matagal ang puwang na namagitan sa amin. Until finally I saw him look directly at my face. I see lust sparkle on his eyes. Natameme ako at kumislot ang nasa loob ng pants ko nang magsalitang muli si Niko.

“Can I kiss you, Dom?”

Itutuloy